This is the third of three posts inspired by Sam’s Samwich post exploring the roots of her wedding planning anxieties. Find part one here.
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I was trying to describe to Ben’s sister how all this wedding stuff feels gross to me because it’s all superficial, surface. It’s based on judgment and appearance. Those are places the real me doesn’t understand. She grows from within. The real me, even back in my awkward teen years, hated to be noticed for my outside, my body, my face, my height. Those are things that don’t belong to me. They are the vessel in which I inhabit, but that is all they are to me. They are the bread of the “Sam”wich. And yes, I love bread, and I’m grateful for bread, but without all the insides of a sandwich, bread is all you have. I feel like much more than what’s on the outside.–Intentionally Sam, “Samwich”
Superficiality Drains My Battery
The biggest reason I hate going to weddings is that I’m usually a friend or relative of the bride or the groom, will have a minute or two of interaction with one or both of them when they’re undergoing a great deal of stress, and spend the rest of my time making small talk with their friends and relatives (whom I’ve never met). If I can dredge up something we have in common to talk about, there will be a toast, or it’s time to cut the cake, or time to dance or do some other bullshit thing and that connection will be lost, in almost all cases, forever.
This is why, as an introvert, I find spending time with synthetic extended families (ones related by an interest) more fruitful than families related by DNA or friends of friends. I’m totally comfortable navigating a room full of strangers if we were drawn to that room through a genuine mutual interest.
How Are We Related?
You each know me through one of my synthetic extended families, so let me try to make some introductions, probably working from longest-standing relationships to newest, so that you can get to know each other on something other than a superficial level.
Waking Up Community at Leaven
I’m related to LaVeta and Jocelyn through a group that used to meet at Leaven Community for meditation, discussion, and snacks on Saturday mornings. Jocelyn and I started a Designing Your Life activity as a subgroup of that family and have continued our design projects (including this one) independently after we left the group and it eventually disbanded.
Intentionally Sam
I met Sam when she ran Cuddle Up to Me because I was curious about non-medication anxiety solutions that can serve as a stopgap until a mindfulness practice gives people some tools to regulate it on their own. Turns out hugs are great for this, but sometimes, in this society, difficult to come by.
Members of the Intentionally Sam Patreon now meet via Zoom on the first Tuesday of every month for a game night. I’m helping her edit her book, and we try to get together for regular walks where we vent about life, the universe, and everything.
Aaron and I also know each other through Intentionally Sam (don’t bet against him at Fibbage) and Aaron knows Jocelyn through a couple of our life design projects.
Monday Cluster
A flight attendant for Lufthansa introduced me to Laughter Yoga during a practice cuddle session. Since that is also a useful modality for rapid cortisol reduction, I attended a New Year’s Day Laughter Yoga party at Chris’s house. It seemed like the most awkward potential synthetic extended family function I could attend that weekend.
Chris and I met again through a Wednesday afternoon Zoom event called Connection Hour hosted by someone I met through a Rewriting Your Life prototype I ran at Cuddle Up to Me.
When the host switched to every other week, a break-off group met on alternate Wednesdays, then Tuesdays, now Mondays.
Michael later joined the Cluster.
Aaron sometimes Clusters with us.
Nurtured Nerds
Someone else I met through a practice cuddle session started up a Zoom meetup during Covid, and that’s where I met Alyssa and Davion. Alyssa was prototyping a group of her own called Nurtured Nerds to introduce socially isolated gamers to cuddling and other self care and Davion was on board as a key utility player from the start.
I’m not sure that the group has met its original objective, but each weekend, several of us get together to check in with each other and play Skribbl.
Secular Buddhism
Also during Covid (are you picking up on the fact that my synthetic extended family tree looks a lot like the Covid virus?)
Noah Rasheta, host of the Secular Buddhism podcast started a Sunday morning Zoom discussion group and later a Circle social media app.
I share posts related to deep woo-woo meditation and enlightenment there and Lorraine and Jennifer know me through that and my Zoom call gabbing.
It’s Your Turn
Now that you all know each other, if someone wants to host a party and invite everyone let me know.
I know it won’t be Sam because she’s got her hands full. And it won’t be me because I love crashing other people’s parties.
What else would you like members of this synthetic extended family to know about you?
I’ll share your answer in next week’s post.